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15 months and counting…<\/span><\/p>\n

That’s how long it’s been since we stopped preventing conception in our house.  Sometimes that feels like a really long time.  <\/p>\n

The last few days have been consumed with baby talk around here.  Lots of baby announcements from friends and family.  A few more suspicions that haven’t yet been confirmed.  More people I know who are trying.  Right now, one couple in our small group has a little girl who is Kayla’s age.  By the time she is 2 (next May), we’ll have 8-10 more babies born to couples in our group.  That’s just crazy!<\/p>\n

It’s also a bit hard for me at times.  I’m not looking forward to being child-less in a “couples with small children” group.  And at this point, that’s what it seems is going to happen.  Of course, I could ovulate tomorrow.  Or it might be 2 months or more.  Who knows?  But it’s hard to live with that tension sometimes. <\/p>\n

Most of the time, I am content with where God has placed us.  He is good all the time, and His timing is, of course, perfect.  And I always suspected I’d have these issues, so I wasn’t surprised.  So when I focus on letting Him teach me whatever He wants me to know, when I commit myself to living productively and pro-actively where I am right now, and when I keep in mind that children don’t define me, my value, or the validity of my life, I have an easier time waiting, especially when I remember that having children is a trade-off of some of the things that are so great about my life now.  <\/p>\n

But there are times, when baby talk invades my consciousness regularly, when I find that it’s harder to stay focused on the truths that keep me from self-pity, frustration, and feeling ‘left out.’  That’s how I felt yesterday.  So I let myself have some time to be sad, and now I have to start refusing to let those thoughts control my feelings.<\/p>\n

So, I didn’t actually intend to put any of this on my blog this morning, but there it is.  Thanks for listening.<\/p>\n

As for life today, I’m done canning beans, but I have some more to freeze.  So I’ll be working on that today.  I also need to make a quick trip to the grocery for some items to make a husband-requested dinner tonight.  And I’m still working on cleaning up from our camping trip over the weekend.  So I should keep myself occupied!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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