So today is the last day of February, and I’m very glad about that. It’s been a hard month.<\/p>\n
There have been good things that happened, of course. The weather has been unusually balmy, so we’ve played outside a lot. I turned 35. We bought some property on which we plan to build a really fun house in the nearer-than-you’d-think future. The days are getting longer all the time. My kids are generally fun and funny and we’ve had some fun days with friends.<\/p>\n
So it’s not been one long horrible month of days or anything.<\/p>\n
But honestly, it has been kind of discouraging despite all that stuff. My birthday was hijacked by a stomach bug. My kids have been in a very needy stage, and the constant barrage of noise and requests and whining has worn me down. There have been some less than feel-good family dynamics to work through. There are other realities that aren’t appropriate to mention on a public blog. But mostly, I’ve just struggled to find my way through the daily minefield of schedules, play times, chores and activities. I’m tired. Emotionally drained. Empty. <\/p>\n
I know I’m not walking with the Spirit well. After all, if I were, there’d be love, joy, peace (among other things). And I’ve had none of those recently. Some of that is by choice, I know. I want to sulk and be sad and selfishly wallow in my own freakish misery (10 point if you can name that movie). But some of it is just a season where I’m having to trust that God is there and providing and that all his promises are true…even when I don’t FEEL like any of that is true. To trust what I know, not what I feel. And that, of course, is always hard.<\/p>\n
So…I’m not sorry to see the end of February. I’m hoping for a breakthrough in the near future. And maybe I won’t even wait for March to look for it. After all, “today is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it.” <\/p>\n
And that’s a much better truth to focus on than how I feel anyway. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
So today is the last day of February, and I’m very glad about that. It’s been a hard month. There have been good things that happened, of course. The weather has been unusually balmy, so we’ve played outside a lot. I … Continue reading