Just to warn you ahead of time, this won’t be a happy post. I’ve been up since 5:30 this morning (and I was up at 10:00, 12:30, and 3:15 before that), and I’m so frustrated I’ve spent most of that time in tears. So this post is going to be me venting.<\/p>\n
I am so tired. I don’t think these babies will ever sleep longer than 3 hours. And I can’t seem to get even 3 hours at night most of the time. Alex is back up 1.5-2 hours after most feedings. Sometimes gas drops will settle him back down. Sometimes not. I give them to him at each feeding, too. And sometimes he’ll burp after he eats and sometimes he doesn’t. Not that it matters, really. Sometimes I get the shortest amount of time after he gives me huge burps. Multiple times this week, I’ve been up for 30 minutes or more, trying to get him to burp or fart or something. And inevitably, I just have to give up and nurse him to have a hope of getting any gas out of him. <\/p>\n
So last night, he started crying at 5:30, and I let him go for a few minutes just to see if he’d settle. He didn’t. So I went and got him and started trying to burp him. He settled down while I was holding him (but didn’t burp) and kept yawning. I finally decided to nurse him at 5:45, and I got a tiny burp and a tiny fart out of him. And then he was smiling at me in the semi-darkness. So I laid him down and he cooed to himself in his crib for a while before he finally dozed back off. But I’m already hearing him in his crib now (7:15), so he’ll probably start it again soon. <\/p>\n
I’m so frustrated. I’m so tired. My body is so tired it just hurts. I’m so desperate for them to sleep longer at night. I don’t understand why they won’t. And I just keep crying because I’m tired of feeding babies, tired of being up all night, tired of having no idea what’s wrong or what else to try. I don’t want to spend today getting ready to go to the farm for the weekend. And I don’t want to go pretend to be happy with my in-laws and the church people all weekend long. I just want it to get better. Now. Because I don’t know how much longer this can go on. And I don’t know who to ask. And my prayers don’t seem to be accomplishing much. Please pray for me. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Just to warn you ahead of time, this won’t be a happy post. I’ve been up since 5:30 this morning (and I was up at 10:00, 12:30, and 3:15 before that), and I’m so frustrated I’ve spent most of that … Continue reading