On Friday, I posted about the results of our ultrasound and some of my initial response. I appreciate all the comments you offered. It also come to my attention that what I said was hurtful (a little or a lot) to some people. And I wanted to respond as best I can to any hurt I caused. And since I chose to share honestly with you all, I thought it appropriate to share the apology openly as well. <\/p>\n
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To those I hurt:<\/p>\n
I am truly sorry that my words hurt or offended you. They were not meant to do so. They were, truth be told, not comments about you, about my kids (born or unborn), or about kids in general. They were really comments about me and my fears and lack of confidence in my own parenting ability. <\/p>\n
I never intended to insinuate that I love my daughters less than my son. Only that I am less confident in my parenting skills with girls. And I’m sorry that you read my words as any indictment of either of my daughters or of you and yours.<\/p>\n
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To those of you with only girls:<\/p>\n
I am truly sorry if my words suggested for even a second that you are somehow “missing out” because you don’t have a son. Of course, you are not. Nor would you think you are, I’m sure. The joy that comes from boys is not better than that from girls. It is a very different joy that cannot be compared. But I did not mean to disparage your girls or your lives “in favor of” boys. And I’m sorry if you read that in what I said.<\/p>\n
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To my Daughters:<\/p>\n
Some suggested that my words might mean I don’t love you like I love Alex. That I am not thrilled to have you. That you somehow have to “earn” my love because you weren’t boys. How it breaks my Momma’s heart to even have to type those sentences out. I am not sorry that God chose me to be your mommy. I am beyond thankful. And I cannot fathom my life without you. Instead of ever wondering whether I love you, wether you are “good enough” for me, know this: I am your Momma, I love you more than life, and I am trusting God to make into the parent you need and deserve. I’m gonna make mistakes, but that won’t ever change how much I love you and how much I want you in our family. <\/p>\n
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To the rest of you:<\/p>\n
I am sorry that my blog today is such a downer. But I felt I needed to say these things. I hope you will hang with me…you help and encourage me more than I can say. You help me learn how to live, love Jesus and my family, and parent better by sharing your life with me, and letting me share mine with you. Thanks for listening. <\/p>\n
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Happy Tuesday.<\/p>\n
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