Me, that is.

The babies are still slogging through colds/croup. Alex does pretty well when he’s upright and on medication. Sleeping is another story, of course. Eric has a slightly stuffy nose, but she’s mostly “suffering” from lack of equal attention from her momma. Yesterday afternoon was not fun.

In any case, I hit a wall last night. After days of little to no help (Eric had to travel for work this week) and adding sickness on top of it, I couldn’t go anymore. I was tired and had been pushing all my crap down because I just had to get through. I really, really wanted to be angry and frustrated. And since the babies’ issues aren’t really their fault, Eric was starting to be my target.

So instead of cleaning my kitchen and tidying up, I went to bed and read a book. About 45 minutes later, I remembered to pray about my frustrations, and well, God reminded me to be thankful, even in my circumstances. Shortly thereafter, I was able to let go of my desire to be angry at someone. I slept pretty well, even with Alex’s noises through the night. And Eric stayed home from work this morning so I could go to the Moms’ group at my church where we watched a video by Anita Renfroe (http://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=anita+renfroe&search_type=&aq=f). Very funny.

By the time I got home, I was better. And that was compounded by the fact that Eric had cleaned the kitchen for me. He’s so great.

And so, on the Friday of a VERY long week, I can honestly say that I’m better today. Thanks for listening.